Over 5 months later, and I look back on my posts and my home page and what my life was like months ago. Not a lot has changed, but everything is different. I have a new home, I chose a new direction, I led myself down a different path. And I can't bring myself to change my homepage or rewrite my "about me" page, though I am not exactly the same as I was just months ago. One day, when I have accepted my choices, I will change those words and rewrite who I am. For now, you can read about the new me in this post.

I am truly amazed by my ability, but continuously question my logic, to just wake up and change my mind and my direction when things were already perfectly right. I can't explain my reasoning or my choices but all I can do is continue the ride with an incredible smile knowing that somewhere along the path this was exactly the way it was supposed to happen. I trust fate in knowing that whenever I have stepped into complete darkness there has always been something solid to stand on and an open hand that is always willing to teach me to fly.

I have a desire to begin to chase the things I want, without knowing exactly what it is I want.

A few months ago, I wanted a change. Not knowing what that meant, I quickly packed up my life and moved alone into a one bedroom to chase the independence I still think I need. While I have always continuously thrived off of the stress of change, I am still learning to accept my decisions for what they're worth. I can't say I made a mistake but I can say that I still do not know what gave me the desire to step into complete darkness when everything had played out exactly how I envisioned. I got everything I wanted, and in the end, that wasn't enough.

I look back on my New Years Resolutions, and one in particular stands out to me... "Get a Fresh Start"... For what it's worth, I have accomplished that goal in a different way, without knowing this would be the way that fresh start would begin. I no longer strive so desperately to move to a new city, for I have already started a new life on my own. That "once in a lifetime" opportunity will come someday, but for now, this "once in a lifetime" feeling of strength, by becoming okay with the silence, being alone, having no one to catch my fall, and accepting the feeling beyond my comfort zone, is enough for me. I am learning how to be happy and content by myself, something I always found in someone else. This fresh start has been a learning experience, and something I know I will look back on and pride myself in having the ability to swim into open water, not knowing where the next shore will be.

As incredibly hard it is to share my life with the world, for fear of judgement, I feel better sharing my thoughts knowing someone in this world might be feeling the exact same way.

Within my resolutions, I stated that 2013 will be the year, the year for something new. Although I had no idea this is what I meant, I am confident that life always works out the way it is meant to be.

Always,
A King

Every year, no matter who we are, we all have one thing in common at the very end of the year, and beginning of the new... We write or even just think about our New Years resolutions; Our dreams of what we will achieve or who we will become in the next year. I want to share my New Years resolutions for those who might be inspired to create something similar for their own.

1. Self-Brand Myself
I hope to start off my resolutions by developing a brand for myself. As part of creating an outlet for my creativity, I hope to create a name for myself in the competitive world throughout this world wide web. We all know thousands of consumer products, commodities, and celebrities, but the ones we remember most, and the ones we buy, are those brands we can relate with, or those who have developed a name for themselves. Who are you, if the world doesn't know you? 

2. Become More Active
Yes, I am pretty sure this is one of the top resolutions for most people. But for me- I am really hoping to become more active in the community, engage in different environments and be a part of more surroundings. I hope to join some sports leagues, attend some classes and be a part of more opportunities to learn new hobbies. In college, the opportunities for these things were so easy, intramural sports, clubs, and the already attending classes, but in the real world, finding these opportunities outside of our daily work routine becomes something you have to chase down. I hope to find these opportunities around me.  

3. Get a Fresh Start
I know this seems vague, but it encompasses a wide array of dreams. I have lived in Washington my entire life. To some- this is not very long. To me- this is far too long for someone who dreams of picking up and starting a new life in every city I step foot into. I am so inspired by those who have the story to tell of moving to a new state. I ask far too many questions to those who have got that opportunity, and look down at the ground when asked "Do you never want to leave?" because of course, I do. I have had the incredible opportunity to travel to new places almost every month, and have some pretty amazing trips in my past, but it is just not the same of picking up and moving to somewhere new. I thoroughly believe that "once in a lifetime" chances have to start somewhere. Why not now? 

I know throughout the month, and even throughout the year, I will have many more resolutions to write in the books, but for now... 2013 will be the year; The year for something new.

“Always continue the climb. It’s possible for you to do whatever you choose, if you first get to know who you are & willing to work with a power that is greater than ourselves to do it." -Unknown

Every day I sit down to write a post, I second guess my every word. As I have already mentioned before, in my one year late post, I wonder what makes my life so interesting that people will want to read my story? So as I sit here to write this post today, I reflect. What do I want to share? What do I want to gain from talking to the world?

I want to inspire.

I want to lead.

I want to influence.

Everyone has a story to share. However, besides sharing the simple life of A King, I want to be able to teach the world about my passions; about my love for making a difference. I want to inspire someone to see the world differently, or see themselves differently. I want to lead by example and push at least one person in a direction to make a change, or chase a dream. I want to influence someone and have a lasting effect in their lives. It doesn't matter to me if I influence only one person in this world... At least I made a difference in their life.

So where do I start?

I have a passion for learning; for being challenged, so as I share what makes A King, I hope you will share insight as to how you feel about my post, my life, or how I can learn from you. While I hope to inspire, lead, and influence, I also hope to BE inspired, led, and influenced.

Please share.

Always,
A King