I've never been good at erasing things completely out of my life.

While there are things I'd rather not think about, share with anyone, or bring up again, I still can't bring myself to delete things as if they never happened. I have pictures I can't make myself look at and memories I hide from my thoughts, but somewhere, there are little reminders of who I was at one point in my life.

As I begin the start of this journey of sharing life with my son, I wanted to post the memory of what this site was like before it now began.

It's August of 2015.

A year and a half after my last post, and almost four years since the very beginning of this site. If only I wrote more posts throughout the years I could look back on how my life has changed, but even looking through the few words and paragraphs I did take the time to write, I am happy I have something to look back on to reflect.

I never anticipated my life would be as it is now. It has everything I love, but didn't go as I had planned... and for that I am extremely grateful.

I have always built my life around planning... planning exactly how I wanted things to go. But even as everyone says that it doesn't go as planned, I secretly smiled in disbelief because I thought that I could make it exactly what I wanted, when I wanted it.

I was wrong.

Right now, I have everything I want. Four years ago when I started this site, I did not think this was what I wanted. Time changes everything... your hopes, dreams, goals, even the things that motivates you to achieve different things. Time moves forward and changes everything in its path.

I am incredibly blessed to say that I am sitting here writing this post from my son's room. My handsome, perfect, little man, who holds every piece of my heart in his tiny almost 6-week-old little hands is laying in my lap as I type.

I love this little boy with every single ounce of me and although he is not yet two months old, I can't possibly imagine my life now without him.

I thought about erasing my previous posts and restarting my site from the beginning of this new journey, but when my son is old enough to read and understand, I hope to teach and share with him a slight glimpse of how life doesn't always go as planned, but you can always have exactly what you want.

From now on, my life does not revolve around me making choices to better myself or to achieve goals or dreams that only lead ME in a new direction. Everything I hope for, everything I dream of, every goal I have for myself involves this tiny heartbeat that I helped create. Everything I write about, everything I plan for, and every day begins and ends with this perfect little boy that I am so incredibly lucky to call mine. My future and my life are no longer the first thing on my mind.

He is.

In a previous post, I mentioned not knowing who would be listening or who would even care to read about life from my mind. I honestly had no idea that the person that I wanted to share my words with were to this little man.

I never thought anyone would want to read about the life of A King, which is why it took so long to put words down on a blog to maybe read about years later. I thought there would be nobody out there on this world-wide Web that I would have the direct benefit of inspiring. I always had an ultimate goal of inspiring people, even just one person. But I had no idea that this one person I could inspire would be part of me.

From now on, I will write about my life and everything in it; Not to just have an outlet for when my mind wanders, not for the hopes of re-branding myself to gain readership or followers or even friends, but so my son can look back on where things all began...

Always,

A King